October 31, 2008

Mod Podge

*sigh* There is so much to say and I don’t even know where to start. So let’s start by jumping on the Obama bandwagon…

Is anyone else completely glued to CNN? (Or your 24 hour news channel of choice.) The US election has me totally captivated and not that it matters because I’m Canadian and don’t get a vote, I will say that I’m an Obama supporter and I it kills me some of the stuff people are choosing to believe about the man. He’s a socialist? No. Canada’s a fairly socialist country and I don’t see anything in his plans that are even close to what we have here. A Muslim? Well, he’s not, but so what if he was? The last I checked, you folks down south had that whole “freedom of religion” thing going for you, so why should that even matter? There’s nothing that says the President of the United States has to be a Christian. I wonder what people would say if he were Jewish? He’s a Marxist? Honestly, I’m not even really sure what that is and I’m betting the majority of Americans don’t know either. Regardless, from what I’ve been told by people smarter than me, he’s not.

Something interesting happened when I went to vote in Canada’s big election last month and I was kind of shocked by it. When Blake and I were standing in line for me to take my turn at the “voting cardboard” (voting machines? pffffft. We vote with a pencil and a paper ballot behind a piece of cardboard akin to what one would use for a science fair project!) there was this guy in front of us who was probably voting for the first time. I’d peg him at between 18 and 20. He overheard Blake tell one of the ladies at the polling station that he was American and thus, not voting and then he overheard me pointing out another lady who was counting a pad of unmarked ballots, showing him how ours are really simple (make “X” here, with 3 or 4 choices), compared to Blake’s crazy-assed absentee ballot for the American general election.

The kid in front of us thought this was funny and he said something like, “For you Americans it should be easier, all you have to choose from is an old guy and a black guy,” but the way he said “old” and “black”, it was like both of those things were negatives.

Now this was a month ago and it’s still stuck in my mind. I was floored by the fact that someone so young would have that kind of attitude, but then again, I probably shouldn’t be surprised living in a Conservative riding, in a town of farmers with a population of 1700. Still, it kinda broke my heart a little to hear this Canadian kid spew such an “ist” view. Until that moment, I just kind of assumed that Canadians, being as liberal as we generally are, were all, well, more open-minded and good natured than that.

Seeing that, or rather hearing it, made me imagine just how bad the attitudes must be in certain places in the US right now.

People may disagree with me on my choice of candidate - or rather Blake’s, since he’s the one who voted for him- and that’s fine, but I truly wish good things for the American people, I love them, and I really believe that Barack Obama is going to provide the US with all the good things they deserve. I’m actually a little bit jealous that we don’t have such charismatic, progressive politicians with good ideas for real change in my own country. I believe that Obama’s going to do good by my friends to the south and I’m going to be genuinely happy for our neighours should he win the presidency.

Y’all have had a really rough 8 years under President Bush and I have hope that Barack Obama will be able to relieve some of the stresses that’s put upon your country. More than that, I think he’s going to progress the US in a good direction, an innovative direction, that will repair the country’s reputation globally and make the US a country to emulate.

Like I said, I’m jealous. I wish our leaders in Ottawa would drink Obama’s Kool-Aid.

I’m probably not the only one, but I keep having nightmares about Barack Obama being assassinated at one of his outdoor rallies or during his presidential acceptable speech. Every time I see him on TV, especially when he’s outside, I’m always looking behind him for the guy who’s got the gun or I’m expecting “pink mist” at any moment. Morbid, I know, but you have to admit that it’s a possibility.

Aaaaaaaaaaand that’s enough about politics that don’t even really affect me.

This afternoon I got my acceptance package from Touched By Fire and I had a slight freak out because “Mania in the Key of Psychosis” (pictured left) needs to be made hangable and with it being so big and heavy, I wasn’t sure that was possible. Blake assured me that it was, however, and brought home a hanging kit made specifically for large, heavy pieces.

The other thing making me freak out is that they want me to mail my art to them, at my expense, and I have NO fucking money whatsoever. I have $200 coming in from a commission, but I need that to buy something to WEAR to the event, which is going to end up doing double-duty by being my outfit for Steph the Geek’s wedding a couple of days later. My lowest estimate to ship “Mania in the Key of Psychosis” is at least $70, plus the cost to ship “Hope” and “Dream” as well would be another $20 - and those two are sold, so I wouldn’t even recoup my shipping costs by selling them. Luckily Blake has offered to drive them down to the office of The Mood Disorders Association in Toronto for me next week, because we figure a tank of gas and half a day’s driving will cost less than shipping everything.

In my Touched By Fire acceptance package, there was an invitation to a pre-event gathering the night of the gala event, that starts at 6:30pm and then the show opens (by invitation only) at 7:30pm-11pm. When I read the invitations to these two things, I immediately had to take an Ativan. I am terrified of this thing. I looked at the slide show from last year’s event and there were all of these strange people there, most were middle-aged (not that there’s anything wrong with that) and they were all eating hors d’oeuvres and sipping win or champaigne and the whole thing just didn’t look like my scene AT ALL. Not that I really HAVE a scene, but if I did, it wouldn’t be that.

And then there’s the fact that it’s a juried show and I’m terrified of winning. Well, that’s not completely true, I think it would be cool to win, but the idea of all these people looking at me and like, maybe having my picture taken for the newspaper, that shit’s totally scary to me and if anything makes me not go, that’ll be it.

Oddly enough, I did my tarot tonight and for “Hopes and Fears” I got the Six of Wands, which says: “The Six of Wands augurs public acclaim or acknowledgment of some kind. This might take the form of a promotion, a qualification, or the recognition of some piece of creative work.

How fucking fitting, huh?

The other thing in the package that made me sweat a little bit is that they want you to write a blurb on each piece. The instructions say: “Touched By Fire is a testament to the creativity, passion and resilience of artists with mood disorders. What can you tell us about this art and hot it was influenced or impacted by your experience with a mood disorder? This statement will accompany your work on display.” EEEEEEEK! I am the WORDIEST motherfucker in the whole entire world, I don’t know if I can write a simple blurb on any of them, let alone “Mania in the Key of Psychosis”. This is my project for the weekend though, I have to get it done before Blake drops the pieces off at their offices.

For anyone in the Toronto area wondering if they can go to the show and see my paintings in person, it’s open to the public Friday, November 14th and Saturday, November 15th, I’m assuming all day. It’s at The Gladstone Hotel in Toronto at 1214 Queen Street West.

As for an outfit to go to the event (and also Steph’s wedding), Blake and I are going to hit the Goodwill and Salvation Army to see if we can’t find some discarded babydoll dresses from the 90’s, to create something like they have on the Free People website, an amazing online shop full of ridiculously expensive clothes that I’d kill to actually own. Hopefully we can find something that’ll work.

In other news…on Saturday we welcomed a new pet to our family! His name is Lucky, he’s a 2-year-old husky/golden retriever mix and I already love him so very much.

After some initial uncontrollable humping due to the hormones from his neutering, he and Hoover Dog are getting along great. Unfortunately this is not the case with Pixel Cat who has been missing for the past 48 hours. :o( Blake took her to the vet on Wednesday for her yearly vaccinations and when he tried to get her out of the car when they got home, she bolted and we’ve seen very little of her ever since. Once last night, at around 11pm, we saw her under the carport and then tonight around the same time, we heard her scamper across the roof, so we know she’s a live and well, she’s just boycotting our house likely because we had the audacity to bring another dog into the family and took her to the vet for needles all in the same week. She’s very unhappy with us. We figure she’ll have to come in eventually. It’s getting very cold outside and she’s gotta eat sometime.

Lucky is going to be my “emotional support animal” as I undergo immersion therapy for my agoraphobia. he’s going to need a little bit of training before I can go out with him, but we’ll get there. He walks well on a leash, likes to stick close to you and is good in the car, which were the qualities we were looking for. He’s happy, he’s healthy, he’s a total sweetheart and I can’t even imagine what kind of idiots would just give him away. His surrender papers were a fucking joke, he was surrendered due to “destructive behaviour” from separation anxiety, but we can’t even get him to play with a chew toy or eat a dog biscuit and the most he’s done is barked when left alone, so I think they just didn’t want to look after him anymore. They also claimed he was a rescue, which is bullshit. No rescue in the world would adopt out a 2-year-old INTACT dog.

Well, it’s getting late and I have to get to bed soon. I’m going to go outside and call the cat for a bit, maybe she’ll come inside for the night, and then I’m going to bed. I had so much more to say but I’m exhausted and on a ridiculous amount of drugs (due to endometriosis) at the moment and I’m afraid that if I kept writing, I would stop making sense.

Something I *did* want to mention however, is that a friend of mine has set up an RSS feed for this site on Live Journal, so that every time I write a blog post here, it automatically shows up on your friends list over there. If interested, here’s the link. I do ask, however, that if you’re going to comment on anything I’ve written, you do so here and not on the syndication feed, because I’m not reading comments on that and won’t see them!

Also, if you’d like to follow me on regular old Live Journal, which gets updated much more often than this site, you can do so here.

And finally, all day I’m a Twittering fool, so if you’re interested in the minutiae of my day, you can follow me there too! I’m everywhere, baby!

And with that, I’m going to bed.

PS. I dyed my hair tonight and it turned out brassy. :o(

PPS. I’ve been playing a lot of Spore lately. If you want to add me to your buddy list, you can do so by searching for “Sunnybananas”!

January 20, 2007

Cotton Pwnies in da hizzouse!

The novelty will never wear off. I <3 my guild, even if I end up being the only person in it. :D (Which is entirely possible.)

Just a reminder for anyone who was thinking of coming over, we’re on Velen (like “Helen” with a “v” for “vile”!), we’re ALL blood elves, with exceptions made for the following:

- Druids
- Warriors
- Transferred 60s

Also, you don’t need to have the expansion to play with us and we’re not using vent, so don’t let either of those hold you back. :) Open invitation throughout the weekend, but once Monday hits, you’ll have to make an introduction thread in the Cotton Pwnies Forum for an invite.

By the end of today, we’ll have 5 level 20’s! I’m still only level 11 because I’ve been running around getting things set up, but so far we seem to be progressing nicely. Slow, but steady. :)

Something I discovered a couple of days ago was this new herb called Bloodthistle, which I’m assuming can only be found in Blood Elf areas because Blood Elves are the only ones who can use it. So, it increases your damage & healing by a bit (haven’t been paying attention how useful it is in that respect) but if you use it and run out, you get Bloodthistle Withdrawl which, at low levels anyway, reduces your spirit by 5, which is obviously a bad thing for all casters. Basically, Bloodthistle is like steroids for Blood Elves and I’m really curious to see how this factors in at higher levels, like how bad the withdrawl and how big the benefit is of this stuff is at level 60. I’ve only hit Thotbott so far, but I wanna know more about this stuff. I’m convinced it’s gotta be used for something cool, like in a recipe of some sort.

I was also thinking how awesome it would be if Blood Elf herbalists could plant the stuff all over Azeroth and then Alliance herbalists had to pick it to prevent the spread.

I also noticed some interesting wording in a quest I handed in last night, it said something about the Blood Elves learning their true “destiny” in Outland. I wonder what that’s all about? Hmmmm…

The whole Blood Elf thing reminds me a lot of American McGee’s Alice, like the scenery and music and the attitude of the whole thing, I love it. (And loved that game, bummer Oz never happened. :()

Okay, I think I’m off to hit the realms and accomplish sweet fuckall for the rest of the day. Enjoy your weekend!!!

Posted at 1:14 pm in: Video Games , World of Warcraft
January 18, 2007

Random thoughts from a random chick.

Today was a good day, the kinda day I’m glad I completely screwed up my sleep schedule for. :D

Anyway, I should be sleeping right now but I have to do some mental reorganization first, so feel free to come along for the ride. :)

First things first, The Adventures of Endometria and the Cotton Pwnies have begun! Oh yeah baby, you fuckin’ heard me! I’m LOLing even typing that, my god.

So since we’re a guild now, that means we need a forum to sort out our thoughts on things, figure out who likes to do what, who’s usually around when & all that crap, plus a bunch of other stuff I’m too tired to remember but I’m sure someone will remind me.

Stuff I decided today:

- I love herbalism.Plants are cool, even if they’re pixelated ones. :)

- Endometria’s going to be a shadow priest… I made it to level 10 today and then came the excrutiating decision about that first talent point. It pretty much came down to “well Raymond got to do it last time”, so fuck you all, someone else gets to main heal. :P

- Blake is teh smrt. He used Wikipedia to look up menstrual terms and came up with the name “Endometria” (I just can’t credit, it’s perfect and I’m pissed I didn’t think of it) and his own, Mensi the Mage. That was some gooood thinkin’.

- Time zones? These things mean nothing to me! So here I was thinking I was all smart because I spent a significant portion of last evening server hopping until I found a new one that was on the same time zone as me (because the server clock matched my clock, duh) and then I saw some people talking in gen chat about that being a “known bug” (o_O?) and our server is apparently on the same time zone as Guam. There’s a large part of me that’s hoping this is true because it doesn’t really fucking matter anyway because I run on SunnyTimeâ„¢.

- I miss Nicole. She’s gonna be extremely proud of how I’ve been spending my time these days. When I tell her about this guild, she’s gonna shit rainbows and I’ve been rehearsing the conversation in my mind & it just gets funnier every time. :D I may wanna get that on film…but I’m also thinking just getting a random letter in the mail as surreal as “Hey so I started this guild…” is worth writing. We’ll see how lazy/ADD/busy/blonde I am next week.

- Alex fucking kills me. But I gotta take a group photo before you’ll understand why.

Some stuff I pondered today:

- My Live Journal friends list is actually more interesting than mine. I mean, it’s what I’m reading every day, right? o_O
- I may just be a possibility junkie.
- How to aquire mass quantities of Barbies/Bratz dolls and $12 for the domain of the hypothetical, not fully formed, “can’t do it myself” idea in my head that’s worth the $12 even if I make a post giving it away for free.

Okay, gonna fart around with WP for another 20 minutes and then I’m gonna sleep like the undead.

January 17, 2007

I’m in loooooove.

Where the fuck do I even start? And oh, you can bet your sweet ass that this post is entirely about WORLD OF FUCKING WARCRAFT, so the non-nerds might wanna skip this one. ;)

I think I’ve spent more time in the last 12 hours making toons than anything else, feeling the vibes on various servers and trying to figure out a plan of attack.

Posey (she’s my 60 nelf tree druid), I took to Outland tonight to get her big girl trade skills, completed half a quest, died three times and salivated over this new herb business because I didn’t read anything about beta and was really excited to see that one. I figured there’d be new herbs and I do think I heard about raising the trades caps, but I picked one and got TWO things. It was very peculiar…and now there’s a new herbal spell? What? Woo hoo!

I played a draenei shaman for a bit just to see what shaman were all about. When we were going through Strat or Scholo or Upper Lower Blackrock Whatever some blue shaman stuff dropped and I saved it in the bank figuring I could either sell high come expansion, save it for someone it our guild, or maybe use it. I’m not totally sold on the shaman thing, I only got her to lvl 9, but the draenei are adorable, I know exactly what I want mine to look like, I even have a few great names that are available, I just don’t know where to play her or what class I want her to be. I’m not much of a PvP’er, but easily could be given the right toon, I just haven’t figured out what I like to do there yet.

Which brings me to the blood elves, the guild I want to create, the guild I’m currently in and the drama I try oh so hard to avoid. :/

Like I said, I created characters pretty much all afternoon because as predicted, servers went down all over the place and a bunch of new servers went up, so I just sat around & played with names/aesthetics. “Sunny”, btw, is never available on any server ever. Bastards. But once I started playing a belf for a bit, I decided I’d be cool with a belf of any kind, as long as she was a caster.

But here’s where the politics and logistics come in, I’m not dedicating my life to effing Warcraft and I figure I have enough time to take PoPo to 70 with one group of people, start a belf guild with another group of people and lvl a draenei…somewhere.

The problem is that someone in our guild already has a horde guild on our server and while he knows I love him & wouldn’t give two shits if I didn’t join his guild and started another, there are probably some folks in our guild who would like to join his.

Another person in our guild (an officer) whom I consider a very good friend at this point, has been talking about making an all blood elf guild since I’ve known him and I told him I had to wait to see what the expansion was like and what was going on in the rest of my life before I could commit to anything. But, truthfully, if I could level a brand new toon up with a group of people, I’d want Ricky to be in that group of people. The thing is, the kind of belf guild I want to make, I think anyway, is very different than the kind Ricky wants to make and is probably very different than the kind of guild Monune is making.

I figured the easiest way to avoid any hurt feelings, bruised egos, drama or any other such nonsense among friends (because the guild I’m currently in, really is the best guild evar) was to describe the kind of guild I want to create and let everyone who wants to make this with me decide for themselves.

The guild name is going to be the Cotton Pwnies. I’d register the domain but honestly, I’m fucking broke and don’t really care because a domain’s not all that important - a site is, but not a domain. It is going to be an all Blood Elf guild, male or female is fine (female would be suggested though ;)), class is up to you.

Now, before you all go “Cotton Pwnies? Wtf, you wanna name a guild after a slang term for a tampon?” Why yes, I absolutely do because it’s fucking FUNNY and I have the most amazing toon name in the whole wide world, are you ready?

Meet Endometria

Need I say more? She’s on the new server Velen and will be the guild leader of the Cotton Pwnies.

I’ve never run a guild before and I’m kind of a newb to the game, but someone has to have that high rank, so that’s me, but I’m going to need help and input as far as what the ranks should be called, what each rank should be able to do (inviting & such), what to do about vent (not sure if I want this guild to have vent in the beginning, honestly…) and overall policy. That’s why I want to take my time with deciding who gets officer status and crap like that, as far as I’m concerned, right now in the beginning, we’re all equal - except I can kick you out if you’re an exceptional douchebag.

I don’t know what kind of guild this will end up being or what we’ll be doing but my intention is to get us all to 70 doing quests, grinds & instances and we’ll figure things out from there.

So, tomorrow (well, I guess today), my plan is to spend time leveling Endometria and if you’d like to start a guild with me, make a blood elf there and send me a message. :)

If you have any questions, feel free to e-mail me (Sunny @ SunnyCrittenden.com), message me on MySpace or otherwise harass me by whatever means necessary.

Stuff that has been asked already:

Q. Will there be a vent server?
A. I dunno yet. Not everyone can use vent and I like to make sure people are capable of playing without it for that very reason. If we end up being a small guild, we may have to rely on PuGs (especially on a new server) and I don’t want to give random strangers vent info just yet.

Q. I’m 13, 14, 15, 16, 17….
A. I like teenagers, I can play with teenagers, but this guild is going to be blogged about, screen-capped, maybe even video’d, on a site that has strong connections to really adult sites (Stile Project, Camwhores
, Blog Wars…just to name a few) and I just don’t want to feel responsible for the young ‘uns. I don’t want to be a role model. I don’t want to have to censor myself when certain people are online (and I’d feel like I’d have to). I don’t ever want to deal with someone in our guild who’s older, perving on someone in our guild who’s younger…I watch Dateline, man, I don’t even want to go there. Plus, if I’m playing this toon, it’s probably because I want a break from kids. I have two of my own, don’t forget. I’m not going to ID anyone, but I am gonna ask and I will kick minors out.

Q. Why a new server?
A. Because it would be cool to be the first guild to DO something on a new server. I dunno what exactly, but it’s not an opportunity you’re going to get on an older server. It’s not the end of the world if we suck and don’t do anything first, though. :)

I also thought that it would be a good way for people to learn how to use the auction house and make good use of their trades. I was playing on a brand new server tonight (well, last night I guess) where no one had made it past level 14 on the entire server and I took a look at the AH…there was a lot of opportunity for someone with the right trades to make some money there. And with a new server, it seems like all trades are the right trade.

Alright, I’m going to bed, don’t steal my awesome guild name peez and I’ll see whoever tomorrow!

Posted at 4:48 am in: Video Games , World of Warcraft
January 14, 2007

2 DAYS UNTIL BURNING CRUSADES!

So obviously, this is going to be the new site. I’ve had a lot of comments and e-mails of protest and confusion about the whole thing, so if there are any questions, ask ‘em here and I’ll do my best to keep everyone in the loop. (Honestly, a lot of times I forget that I’m not the only one looking at/reading this shit) Just do me a favour & mind the mess over the coming months, it’s probably gonna get a hell of a lot worse as I fuck things up completely trying to learn a whole new system I don’t even have the first clue about.

As an aside, there’s the Visual Quickstart Guide to Wordpress on my wishlist if anyone wants to help me out.

Someone asked me what’s going to happen to good ol’ LJ once this site is up & running the way I want it to be and I don’t really have an answer for that question yet. What I do know though, is that I feel gross mentioning movies or books or whatever in LJ and using my Amazon affiliates links to link to anything because it feels like I’m advertising to my friends and I think that’s wrong, so that was one reason to move away from LJ a bit. There’s also the drama involving cut tags and NSFW images, that really, I just don’t want to deal with anymore. Plus…some other stuff that’s a little more deep & neurotic that I might get into one day, but today’s just not that day. There are reasons, good reasons. :)

The “Sunnybananas” LJ will probably always exist, I mean I’ve got 5 years worth of my life archived there….I dunno. I just don’t know yet.

People have been asking me for like, a year now, what’s going to happen with Camwhores because it’s been pretty obvious that I’m not as into the site as I used to be - or at least, that’s the surface perception. The truth is that I got married, had another baby, bought our first house far far away from everything I’ve known my whole life and then…2006 was probably the worst year of my entire life. Our roof started caving in, I went crazy (like literally crazy, hospitalized, medicated & the whole works and I even did so in front of the whole fucking internet! I’m such a prostar.), I disowned damn near my entire family and then a few days before Xmas, I had to call the police on my mother which is this whole thing I promise I’ll get into publicly eventually, but not right now.

I just wanted to clear up that my activity over at Camwhores (or rather, lack thereof) has absolutely NOTHING to do with the site itself, the people who are there or any of that other crap. In fact, I’m a little bummed that I’ve been missing out on some of the changes over there and as I’ve been planning changes in my life and planning for the changes to come, Camwhores has played large in my mind. Truly, Kevin’s gonna have to drag me from that site kicking & screaming one day. This bitch ain’t goin’ nowhere. :D

Plus, some of the changes coming sound pretty goddamn interesting and I wanna be there for ‘em. :):):)

Some other questions I’ve received recently involve the cam book I’ve been “working on” for like…ever, called Digital Burlseque and the camgirls documentary myself and a bunch of other girls in the “scene” were filmed for.

So let’s start with the book…here’s what happened (well, the Reader’s Digest version, anyway):

Three or four years ago this guy named Brad King messages me on Yahoo (or MSN or AIM, I forget now) and basically I was all, “Cooooool, you’re a writer! With a real published book on Amazon & everything!” So we began talking and he tells me that I should write a book, I laugh and say “About what?” and he says “this webcam stuff”. Well, I didn’t take that seriously but then I got thinking and decided he might be right, so I started collecting and printing out articles on the subject and started throwing them in a box, knowing that eventually, this stuff wouldn’t even be on the internet anymore and if I was going to write a book on the subject, I should start squirreling away these things now.

About a year later, Brad tells me that he’s starting this small indie press that’s going to only cater to geek and internet culture, “it’s going to be to geeks what Sub-Pop was to grunge” were his exact words, and that Digital Burlesque would be the perfect book for such an endeavor, so get working on it! So I did. I conducted months and months of interviews both one on one and through forums, I wrote a proper outline as I was asked to do, I even got the first draft of the book about 3/4 finished, but then everything sort of went to shit.

First of all, I don’t know how to write a fucking book and writing books is hard, especially books that deal with dates and facts and doing things “first” and oh so many egos. I got absolutely zero support from Brad, my so-called editor and then I didn’t hear from him for months until he messages me to say that he’s taking a teaching position at some fancy schmancy new media & communications university. But of course, this means “big things” for Demon Press, right? He started telling me how this means that Demon Press could potentially become a univiersity press blah blah blah and this means good stuff blah blah. So great, I get excited again, resume working on the book and then I’m blown off for like, another year.

So while I waited for SOME KIND OF GODDAMN DIRECTION AND/OR COMMUNICATION or I dunno, HELP, I worked on another book, called Textibitionism, which I was going to just publish myself but I sent it to Brad and from what I understood of the conversation, he was going to publish it and I’d finish Digital Burlesque next.

The last message I got from Brad was 6 months ago saying that his students will be doing layout during second semester, which would be like…now. So I said, “great, lemme know if I need to do anything” and the response was “Write your damn book!” so I took it that he was talking about Digital Burlesque and not Textibitionism.

Well, sorry honey, but I can’t finish a book in 6 months and in the 4 years I’ve been “working on” it, Brad hasn’t even managed to edit what I’ve sent him, so well…fuck you! And hey, guess what? Newsflash, I’m not dropping everything because you’ve decided you’re gonna get your shit together. I mean, I’m sorry it just doesn’t work that way. I’ve been sitting here literally starving, often struggling, worrying, stressed out, going to the goddamn Food Bank on occassion to keep my kids fed and you’re gonna dick me around KNOWING ALL OF THIS? No, I’m sorry, the book, whenever finished (and it will be one day), is not yours anymore.

To add insult to injury, a couple of weeks ago I get a comment on my MySpace from Brad saying that as difficult as I am, happy new year anyway and that maybe “someday” I’ll communicate with him again. *eyerolls* Just…fuck off. I’m probably one of the easiest people on the whole goddamn internet to get ahold of and you wanna pin bad communication on me? Dude…

So that’s the saga of “the book”, more or less. I’m still working on it, in the sense that I live cam culture and speak with people within cam culture every single day, I print and collect everything I can and one day, the book will be done, but I don’t care if it’s finished one year from now or 30 and I don’t care how many books are published on the topic in the meantime. (Well, unless they’re inaccurate…. ;))

As for the documentary, honestly your guess is as good as mine at this point. Last I heard it was still in post-production and god only knows when it’s gonna be finished. Truthfully, I hope they cut me out of it completely (and they just might). I don’t regret doing it or anything like that, I just didn’t think this “my face on a big screen” thing all the way through when I agreed to do it…it’s just….creepy….

Anyway, screw all this “shop talk”, let’s get down to WoW. :D


This is Posey, she’s a lvl 60 bad-ass tree druid who’s really looking forward to Lifebloom because it sounds as bad-ass as I know she is. :D She hasn’t done MC, she hasn’t even seen Onyxia yet, she’s a long ways off from AQ20/40 and since 3 of the best people in her guild (who, unlike just about everyone else in the guild actually knew wtf they were doing) left today, she probably won’t be doing any of the above. Regardless, I’m gonna do my best to get her to 70 anyway because I really like being a tree.

Now, notice that I didn’t mention the server she’s on. There’s a reason for that. See, when I first started playing in June, I posted on LJ that I got an account and that I’d be playing on such & a such a server because some of my real life friends had made a guild there. Being a newb, I didn’t know this was a dumb thing, I was just writing about what’s going on in my life like I always do and it never ocurred to me that random people who read my crap on the internet every day would follow me to a WoW server, but some did and it’s caused some minor issues that I’d like to keep from blowing up into major ones in the future.

My guild leader last week made it clear that she doesn’t want “people in that industry” (meaning the internet porn industry because y’know, that’s all I do and you’re ALL nothing but a bunch of degenerate pedophile perverts who are ALL going to hell in a handbasket :D) in her guild, so fuck it, this week I think I’m gonna start a new one. On Tuesday when the expansion begins, Blake & I are going to choose a brand-spankin’ new server (as I’m sure Blizzard will be adding a few) to start the lvl 1 blood elf toon that’s been in my head since we found out that, indeed, BEs would be the new race. And we’re gonna play these toons, farm some gold - hopefully with some of you - and then when we’ve got enough people in our posse to sign a charter, this new guild will begin.

And yes, it has a name and yes, a tabard’s already been designed, but those are gonna be a surprise. :D The only rule (so far) though, is that all toons in this guild have to be blood elves, with two notable exceptions:

1. Druids, since they have to be tauren.
2. Transferred 60’s. (If anyone wants to go that route…)

Oh, and if you’re a ninja-looting douchebag, under 18 years of age or an egomaniac, don’t even bother.

Obviously I’ll post more details in regards to all of this next week, but if you’re a WoW player and aren’t sure yet what to do with all this new content, there’s an option. :)

I haven’t really thought about ranks, guild rules and what kind of guild this is going to end up being, but I figure that can be played by ear for the most part and a lot of that is dependent on the group we get anyway so we’ll worry about that later. All I know is that I’m pretty flexible & just wanna have FUN godammit!

Questions? Input? E-mail me (Sunny @ SunnyCrittenden.com) or leave a comment.

And with that, I gotta go work on some other stuff…