To borrow a Burning Man phrase, being back in the “default world” fucking sucks. :o/ It’s raining. I’m tired. I’m cranky. I’m overwhelmed. I have a staff meeting this afternoon and had to work this morning. I have to write this huge post or a series of posts about Squam and I don’t know where to begin. I have all these pictures to edit, things to transcribe, things to scan…blarg.

BLARG I SAY!

Something that I think I’ve taken away from Squam is that there needs to be some change in my life. I knew this before I left but since being there I’ve decided on even more changes.

I’m going to care more about what I write. Not the content necessarily, but the words. I used to be a much better writer and I think the reason I’m not anymore is because I’ve gotten lazy.

I’m probably not going to paint anymore. I think this has been a long time coming. My heart’s just not in it anymore, I’m not inspired. And when I tell you about my mixed media class with Sarah Ahearn Bellemere, I’ll elaborate on that a little more. I’m still going to be creative, I’ll always be creative, just in other ways.

I met a woman, a teacher, named Thea Coughlin who has changed my life. She’s just a phenomenal person and I finally know how to take a perfectly exposed picture and I cannot even believe how easy it is once you figure out how. Blake’s been trying to teach me this for 6 months, I’ve been reading tutorials online since I got my camera; I just never understood. But Thea taught me and now I understand and that’s just amazing to me. She does these portraits she calls “Spirit Portraits” and this is one of the shots she took of me. This is how I feel after Squam, and I’ll leave it at that:

Now I sleep. Or edit photos. I can’t decide. Probably sleep. Namaste! Have a wonderful day!