I hate my hair. I hate my skin. I hate that I don’t know what to do about either one.
My hair is super baby fine and just hangs there.
No matter what kind of volumizing shampoo and conditioner I use, it just hangs there.
And it gets greasy very very fast because…
As soon as I hit 30, my skin decided to freak the fuck out and for the first time in my life I started getting zits.
And for the first time in my life, I didn’t have “normal” skin anymore, I had “oily”, which I think is so fucking gross.
I’ve tried 13 different face-washing products and an astringent and my skin is still all kinds of greasy gross unless I wash it twice a day.
(Which I know is probably making it worse by overcompensating, but I really cannot deal with feeling grease on my face.)
Before 30, do you know what my skincare routine was?
I would wash my face every 3 days with SHAMPOO.
Whatever shampoo was on sale.
And I didn’t get my first zit until I was pregnant with Wes and even then it was a once every 6 months (MAYBE) occurrence.
I don’t know what product I should be using.
And there’s probably no point in anyone suggesting anything because I’m not paying crazy prices for facewash and whatever you’re thinking of we probably don’t have here.
That used to drive me insane when I was a teenager, reading Sassy and Seventeen and YM.
We could never enter their contests or get 90% of the products they featured.
Anyway, my hair.
Since we’ve been watching Buffy from the beginning, I’ve developed a serious case of hair-envy.
I don’t know how to do hair.
I don’t know what to tell a stylist to do to my hair to make it not look like crap.
I want cute hair like Buffy. :o(
I tried today but it just ended up looking stupid like it always does. :o(
I put a little blue butterfly barrette in there on the right side but it looked too dumb so I took it out.
I suck at being a girl. The only thing I’m good at is menstruating.
And bitching, apparently, which I’ll stop doing now.
The kids have been watching Buffy all throughout their Xmas break, which makes me very proud. Especially of Wes because Buffy’s sort of a girl’s show but he’s really into it. Madison hates Cordelia and has a crush on Xander. Blake told her last night that in Season 2 she was going to really hate Cordelia for obvious reasons…if you’ve watched the show, that is.
One more thing about hair though: just before Xmas, I bought myself a big fat curling iron. You’ve probably seen it before, it’s the big fat, 1.5 inch, pink Conair one. I used to have the same curling iron when I was in college but I gave it away to my friend Crystal and I cannot remember why. I was either going to get that or a straightener but I figured I’d get more mileage out of the curling iron because Madison could use it if she ever decided to grow her hair long again. (I have 2 other curling irons, an old Braun one, the cordless one that heats with a butane flame inside the barrel and then I have a skinny one which Jen used on me in this userpic.) But my hair now has no real layers (well, Eryn was the last person to cut my hair and she’s 12…and said she could do layers but as it turns out she cannot) and as I said, just hangs there and UGH.
And that’s all I have to say about hair for the time being. I mean, I want it long, I want to keep it long, I just want to be able to do stuff with it too. Except I don’t know what stuff and the stuff I think I want to do, I don’t know how to do.
I’ve been writing this post and camwhorin’ while I’m working and I figured since I haven’t talked about it in a while, I should tell you all about my job.
I love my job.
Sure, I’m not exactly saving the world or anything, but I’ve always had this weird thing about solving other people’s problems and making people’s days better and that’s pretty much what I do. They e-mail with problems, I use my special powers to fix them and it makes their day better. At the end of our exchange, I usually get a “thank you”, some even gush.
At the same time, I think this job is making me a little jaded and some days I really fucking hate every single person that e-mails us because they are whiny, sniveling, ungrateful shits. But days like today I really like because I’ve been wished a happy new year about 200 times today and while I know they don’t really mean it personally because they don’t even know who I am (and I don’t even use my real name when replying to e-mails) but still…it’s a good vibe.
Also, I’m getting better at the job. My boss has commented a few times over the past few weeks that I’m about 99% accurate and that I’m getting much faster at answering a mass of e-mails. The goal they’ve set is 60 e-mails an hour. I’m not that fast yet, but I’m getting pretty close and boss #2 has said that soon she’s going to have me archive the e-mails I reply to because she feels she doesn’t have to go over them anymore because I’m accurate enough. She’s also taught me a few new things over the last few weeks so I think I’m getting closer to not being in training mode anymore, which is a very good thing.
And I got an Xmas bonus! Totally unexpected and totally awesome! I bought Blake a Leafs jersey with it so he’d have it to wear when we went to the game on the 22nd. I forget if I explained this or not, but Blake and I both have knock-off jerseys from Wal*Mart, mine’s pink (although I do have a real jersey, my step-mom bought it for me about 14 years ago when the 3rd jerseys first came out – or at least I think they came out then, I don’t recall seeing them before that). Anyway, I couldn’t let Blake go to the game in a Wal*Mart jersey so I rectified that yesterday and even paid for speedy shipping so it would get here in time. I also got myself a Leafs baseball hat for those times where I just don’t even feel like dealing with my hair.
But yeah, work is going amazingly well. I go to bed early like an old fart throughout the week so I can get up early to “go” to work and then I’ve been painting on weekends or during the day on slower days. Today, however, is not a slow day. I guess a lot of people must be home alone tonight and in need of adult entertainment because the e-mails have been pretty steady all day with people getting their accounts in order for tonight.
My New Year’s Eve plan is to work on my sketchbook for The Sketchbook Project, which has frayed my nerves as I still don’t have a single page finished and it’s due in 15 days. Then I’ll be going to bed early tonight because I had Monday off to have Xmas with my mom and in exchange, I said I’d work New Year’s Day, which my boss is very happy about because she can sleep in.
Anyway, I’ve rambled enough and instead of writing pointless blog posts about dumb stuff while I work, I should probably work on my sketchbook.
I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year’s Eve and that 2011 will treat you well! xoxo