There are three things right across the road from our house: a small park with swings, a small slide and teeter-totters, the Trans Canada Trail (which is mostly used as a snowmobile trail that conveniently ends at the titty bar in Phelpston) and fields and fields of nothing that are going to soon be a subdivision full of homes worth $250,000+. 300 of them.

Last week we took the dogs down the trail and into the fields just to see what was there and to get out of the house. I of course, took pictures and these are the ones I like best.

THE END.

June 4th I go to see the endometriosis specialist in Toronto who will be doing my surgery #5. His name is Dr. Leyland and he’s like, uber. Check out his RateMDs.com ratings.

With how extensive the endo is this time, I’m really worried that he’s going to say it’ll take him forever to laser all of the adhesions off and that a hysterectomy is best. I’ve thought about this a lot over the last couple of months since I got my post op report and Dr. Dickhead told me hysterectomy may be the best option and I’ve decided that the only way they’re taking my uterus is if they take my uterus, my fallopian tubes and ovaries out intact and give them to me to take home in a fucking jar.

If I have to supply the jar and the preservative stuff myself, I’m totally willing to do it. Just tell me what to get and I’ll have it all ready.

My goddamn reproductive system has been the bane of my existence since I was 11 years old, the source of chronic pain and the source of 15 years worth of art. I’ve learned to live with the pain and at this point I’m not sure I’ll know right away how to live pain-free. The idea of NOT taking painkillers (that let’s face it, I’m addicted to) every single day is a completely foreign concept. I’m afraid that without my uterus and the pain to work from, I won’t be able to create.

Thus, I want that motherfucker in a jar on my desk. To me, it’s a work of art in and of itself and I want it.

If I can’t keep it, then I’m not having a hysterectomy. He can just do as much as he can with the laser, I’ll go on birth control non-stop for a year and hope for the best. I’ve had the exact same treatment albeit with cauterization and look where it’s gotten me, this is just a temporary fix. In another 8 years I’m going to be back in the same place I am now. It’s just how the disease works. But in 8 years I’ll be 38 and if I’m anything like my mom, I’ll only be 5 or 6 years away from menopause so I could spend that time on painkillers or I could have surgery again.

Anyway, these are my thoughts on the matter.

Today is the very last day for Hypercube voting and you only have until NOON to get your votes in for Blake & I so for your convenience, here are our handy dandy canvas links!

~*Sunny | Blake*~

I just want to thank each and every one of you who have been voting for us this whole time. Thanks to you, we’re both going to finish in the top 20, which is pretty fricken good when you consider that there are 498 (give or take) other entrants!

Honestly, I’m relieved that things are finally coming to a close. What comes next? Well, nothing for 5 days (as far as I know), then the judges go over all of the canvases from the 20th to the 25th and then they announce the winners “mid-June”. I’d like to say that this is over, but I’m going to be paranoid about the judges being on my site and having good blog posts up when they ARE so I’ve still got another 10 days or so of stress. But, like I said on my canvas, all I can do is be myself and hope that’s enough.

So, without further ado, here’s the last batch of fansigns and again, thank you all so much!

Belinda from Indiana made me a painting!

Katie and Oscar think that “Sunny with a cube is greater than a lonely sad cube with no Sunny.”

Patrick from California is on board with team Sunny!

Ronny from Michigan thinks I need a Cube!

Mischief has a message…

From Camille in Virginia.

Also from Camille in Virginia.

Thank you so much to everyone who sent in fansigns!
I ended up with 54 of them and you can see them all HERE if interested!

I just drove to the post office and back all by myself. You have no idea what a big deal that is.

I had to take Ativan to do it, but I did it.
Unfortunately there was no mail for me but I sent mail to other people!
I wish I still had my PO box so I could just post my address and people could send me mail again but it was $130 or so per year, due right around Xmas, and I just couldn’t do it anymore. Bummer. :o(

Not that I’m begging for gifts or anything? But if anyone wanted to send me mail, my wishlist is a good option. Or if you just wanted to send me a letter, you could e-mail me (Sunny@SunnyCrittenden.com) and if you promise me you’re not a stalker freak, I’ll probably give you my address.

I’m just sayin’.

Depending on how many letters I get, if any, I can’t promise I’ll write anything spectacular back, but I’ll do my best to send you a Sunnyland post-tard.

I realized something this weekend. It’s May 24 weekend! That means I can plant my seeds.
People, I have 2lbs EACH of cosmos and bachelor’s buttons to plant. This year’s garden is going to be spectacular.

I was just looking at my Keep Off the Lawn galleries and man my friends and my garden make me so happy. As much as the weather sucked, my Keep Off the Lawn party was probably one of the best times of my life.

This weekend is also Madison’s 11th birthday.
Blake’s taking her and a friend to see the new Zac Efron movie, which I strongly object to because it’s worthless Disney type teeny bopper crap but the other kid’s already seen Monsters Vs. Aliens so 17 Again it is!

On Thursday Phil aka my dad, is coming with his buddy Tim and they’re going to rip out my bay window (the big one on the left side of the house, see it?) because it’s fubar and they’re going to be replacing it with a spiffy new window that OPENS and is a couple of feet off the ground so there’s no way Lucky could break it again. Plus? It’ll have like a shelf thing which means I’ll finally have a place to put plants. That makes me happy.

Today Blake bought a lawnmower.
It’s sitting in a box in my office.

Also, do you know how amazing my husband is? Okay we have Rogers homephone, cable and internet and Bell’s been nagging us and nagging us to come back to them, but I keep saying no because I don’t want their shitty DSL. I am not a DSL fan. Everyone I know with DSL has had problems with it whereas everyone I know with cable has been fine, aside from a few people who want to download more than they’re capped for but you’re gonna get that with DSL too anyway.

So last night a Bell rep calls and talks to Blake for like, 40 minutes. He gets off the phone and says “we should switch to Bell because…” and I said “NO.” And he’s like, “But it’s 17% faster and we’ll save…” and I said “NO.” And I didn’t even want to talk about it.

So today Blake goes to the Rogers store, tells them the deal Bell was going to giveus and not only did he talk them into giving us a BETTER deal than Bell was offering, but he flirted with the gay dude behind the counter and ended up scoring us a PVR for free which he picks up tomorrow. I don’t really know what I’ll do with a PVR, I’ve never really wanted a PVR, but now we’re going to have one and it’s free, so yay! Maybe now I can actually watch The Office again. (I haven’t been watching it since they have it on at the same time as Grey’s Anatomy now and time shifting doesn’t seem to help me.)

Also today, Blake picked me up a package from Curry’s and I’m now officially out of money. Flat broke. Between my Curry’s order and renewing CamgirlUnion.org for another year even though I’m never gonna use it for anything, I’m now flat broke. And I have all of these wonderful ideas in my head to paint and sell to you guys and make some money so I can do things like meet my caseworker at the restaurant down the street like she suggested and have lunch (because eating in public is one of my “things”) or walk downtown and go to the dollar store or the fabric store or buy myself flowers because GODAMMIT I DESERVE THEM etcetera but I’m so wrapped up in this Hypercube contest, as I said yesterday, that I haven’t had time to actually WORK.

Soon though. Soon I can get my office in order and clean my desk and get back to work.

But my Curry’s order. Guess what I got? Okay you won’t guess, but here’s what I got:

• A set of 4 Pitt pens in black, which are waterproof, smudge-proof, extremely lightfast and they use indian ink
• Two Prismacolour Premier fine line markers which are archival, acid-free and lightfast
• Three Sakura Pigma Micron pens, in black and in various sizes which are archival, waterproof and fadeproof
• And finally, I bought a small jar of Golden Crackle Paste just to try it out

I don’t really know what I’m going to do with the pens yet, I just decided that it was time for me to have proper archival pens to even just sign my name on paintings with, if not to use in paintings themselves. I watched a video by Lisa Cole a few days ago (can’t find the link to it now, but she was making like, craters on the moon) but I was inspired by her use of ink in some of her paintings and wanted to see what I could do with them.

Now if only I had the time.

Well lovelies, it’s 5:00am and my back is absolutely killing me from sitting in this chair at the computer 18+ hours a day lately, so I’m going to go sleep and allow my muscles to relax for at least 8 hours. Please, for the love of god, give me 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep instead of the 4 hours I’ve been getting every night lately.

Anyway, I’ll see you guys tomorrow and I’ll talk to a lot of you on Twitter!

Don’t forget to vote! Only 2.5 days left!
Sunny | Blake
THANK YOU!

I think Mandy’s request is clear!

(Made by Dave in Arcata, California!)

Here are our handy dandy Hypercube audition page links for your voting convenience!

Sunny | Blake

THANK YOU!!!
<3

So, there are only 3 & a half more days left of voting for the Hypercube contest as voting ends Friday at NOON.

Here are our handy dandy Hypercube audition page links for your voting convenience!

Sunny | Blake

Blake uploaded his new canvas last night while I have to find the energy to pretty much re-do my canvas so it looks less sloppy. Or at least that’s the plan. If I get it done, I get it done, if I don’t, I don’t. To me it’s the text that matters and I only plan on adding one sentence to what I have on there already and it’s just a minor perfectionist thing. The application we had to use to make our canvases is so buggy that my text and pictures didn’t format properly once I saved them and submitted them for approval and I think possibly the reason for that was because the more layers you have on your canvas, the more it tends to screw up. Yesterday while having a nap, I had a dream about my canvas and I found a way to minimize the amount of layers used. Again, if it gets done, it gets done, if not, then oh well. I’m not going to kill myself worrying about it.

Since people have asked, here’s how the rest of the contest plays out as far as I’m aware:

• voting ends at noon on Friday, May 15th
• judging takes place May 20th-25th
• winners are notified either May 29th or mid-June (there are conflicting dates on the site) and if you’re a winner you have 10 days to complete, sign and send back the paper work
• if you’re a winner, you get your car mid-July

Truthfully, I can’t wait for this thing to be over or at least for it to be more or less out of my hands as to what happens. I want my life back!

Between immersion therapy stuff, my new caseworker and this contest, everything else in my life has fallen behind. I still have four paintings to complete over the next month or so so I can AFFORD to do immersion therapy stuff and my pile of things to read is turning into more of a mountain. I’m 3 issues behind on Today’s Parent, I’ve got this month’s NYLON and BUST magazines to read, plus I still have to finish Edgar Sawtelle, read The Watchmen, start on Anne Rice’s latest Jesus book, read The Secret Life of Bees so I can finally watch the movie and read the entire Sookie Stackhouse series.  Oh and Alex dropped off The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins a couple of weeks ago so that’s on the pile now too. I did finish Y: The Last Man books 4 & 5 this weekend though, so at least those are now off my desk.

Ronny lent me Ren & Stimpy seasons 1 & 2 (the only good ones imo), which have been sitting on my desk for at least a month & a half and I haven’t even touched them yet. Jesse lent me the last two seasons of It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia and he keeps getting mad at me because I haven’t watched “the one episode” yet. (I don’t know which one.)

Ahhhhhhhhhh so much media to consume and not enough time! Although really? I have all the time in the world, especially once school’s finished and it’s officially summer, but I hate stuff piling up like this, especially the paintings because I need those for income.

So yeah, way ready for this contest to be over so my life can go back to normal. And of course, I can’t make a post about the contest without posting fansigns so here are two. :o)

I inexplicably woke up at 4:30am and couldn’t get back to sleep, so my plan is to have lunch and then nap for the rest of the afternoon. Then when I wake up I’ll either make the other post I planned on maing today or work on my canvas. Either way, I’ve got shit to do so I better get on track.

A huge thanks to everyone who’s been helping us with this contest. Blake & I really really appreciate it. We couldn’t do it without you. <3

Hey did you know that I love Twitter? You can follow me @SunnyCrittenden. Don’t forget to say hi! I don’t follow people back unless they actually converse with me on a consistent basis.

Anyway, my friend @stephthegeek, who has a bunch of websites now and I never know which one to link to, tweeted this and I thought it was worth retweeting. However, it was too long so I’m putting it here instead. I also think I’m going to have to start a category for quotes as I seem to be posting a few of them lately.

When you show everything you become free: no one can capture you anymore, since there is nothing left to capture.

- Hille Koskela
Webcams, TV Shows and Mobile Phones: Empowering Exhibitionism

Votes have reset! Here are our handy dandy Hypercube audition page links for your convenience!

Sunny | Blake

Yoko Ritona from…Portland, Oregon has something she’d like to say!

PS. Star Trek was so good it brought me to tears. I LOVED it.
It’s almost 7am, now I sleep.

I vote for this girl every goddamn day and this is just one of the many reasons why. God I love this contest. ROFL Thanks to this contest, I like, have Canadian friends now it’s crazy. CRAZY I TELLZ YA! Here are some of their Twitter names and canvas links in case you felt inclined to vote for them too!

@gunandagirl – From Saskatchewan
@heartsandclefs – From Saskatchewan
@thaPHLASH – From Quebec
@JDollin – From Toronto
@sandbarmark – From Prince Edward Island (ask him about “Anne”! He loves that!)
@Tylersdaytoday – From Toronto-ish?
@mariapetersen – From British Columbia
@qubicmx – From Alberta
@annakarenine – From Quebec
@willeagle – From Toronto
@BeCircle – From Toronto
@MichelSavoie – From…I’m actually not even sure where!
@Cube_Man – From Thornhill, Ontario
@mackb1991 – From Alberta
@savvari – From Toronto
@PhilKnudson – From London, Ontario
@NashvilleLotus – From Peterborough, Ontario
@theMediaman3 – From Toronto
@capsulecom – From Toronto
@mindzai – From Markham, Ontario
@lw81 – From Hamilton, Ontario

But most importantly, vote for US, @4bit4 & @SunnyCrittenden for the next 8 days because we’re awesome! Thank you!