I don’t know why this has been so hard for me to write about, but it has been. I’ve been avoiding it all week.

On Tuesday I woke up at 3:30am, as I’m prone to do when I try to go to sleep early and thus, I was up at dawn with nothing to do. The sun was just starting to rise when I got it in my head that it was time to quit writing about how I’m not doing very well with my immersion therapy and just go for a damn walk.

Admittedly it took a couple of hours to psych myself up and I had to take Ativan before I went, which is actually a “no no” with immersion therapy (because you’re supposed to learn how to do it on your own), but it was my maiden voyage so I think it’s forgivable this time.

So, at 7am, armed with my iPod and my camera, I went outside and braved the world.

I started off in my front yard, not even sure if I’d make it further than that.

And the next thing I knew, my feet were walking themselves down the street. Now, where I am in my immersion therapy, I’m only supposed to go to the end of the block, but when I got there I thought the end of the block was stupid because really from my house to the end of the block, it’s only like, 4 houses, so I kept going.

This is a truck refueling station that actually extends sort of behind my house, but the driveway is 4 houses down.

This sign told me to go “this way”, but I went “that way” instead, towards Heritage Park.

The stage in Heritage Park. In the summer they have concerts there. There’s also a pavilion that I didn’t take pictures of, where they have food type events, like pancake breakfast for the Maple Syrup Festival, which is this weekend.

At the back of Heritage Park there’s a trail that takes you to another park called Bishop Park, which I decided was going to be my destination. I suck at estimating distance, but I’d say from my house to Bishop park, it’s about a kilometer.

This is red dogwood, which I think is so beautiful, especially so early in the morning when it’s wet and the sun’s shining right on it.

This is the path ahead. Truthfully, as I was walking I didn’t know how far the park was and I kept being afraid that someone was going to come up behind me and like, beat me up for my iPod /camera or rape me or kill me or something. This feeling was amplified by the fact that I never left a note for anyone at home because I didn’t think I’d get far enough to bother.

But then I remembered, this is Elmvale. The odds of anything like that happening are fairly slim. Especially at 7 o’clock in the morning.

To the left of the trail is private property and they really don’t want you anywhere near it.

Along the path is a creek. I titled all of the pictures I took of the creek as “SunnysCreek1.jpg” etc and I’ve had the Dawson’s Creek theme song stuck in my head ever since.

I think moss is one of the coolest things in nature. I always have. I’m not sure why.

This is iPod Crittenden.

More no trespassing…

Where the path and the creek bend, there’s a little island in the middle that I’m kind of obsessed with. This summer I’d really like to find a way to get me and the kids over there so I can take pictures of them. The light there in the summer is really beautiful filtered through the trees and it’s definitely on my list of things to do once I’m over this whole agoraphobia thing.

I found a treasure. :o) I brought it home for Wes and he loved it. (Obviously it was empty.)

This is a squished snake. Over the winter a lot of trees fell down across the trail, so they’ve been doing a lot of work back there to clear them and I’m assuming this guy got run over by some sort of machine.

I did not stay away from the fence, nor the barbed wire.

If you read my Live Journal, then you’ll know that this bench was one of my goals. It’s still a goal in that I plan on making this trip more than the one time and I plan on sitting on that bench and reading because part of immersion therapy is to remain immersed in the environments that make you uncomfortable.

Annnnnd I made it to Bishop Park…

Then I turned around, crossed the bridge and started my journey home. I think in the summer when the gardens bloom, which are straight ahead of the bridge, this shot is going to look awesome.

This squirrel did not want me to take his picture.

Hello geese! Welcome home!

More moss. How cool is that? Doesn’t it look like it should be growing under water?

Here’s a different kind of moss. As I said in the beginning, I think moss is really really cool.

I love nature’s defiance.

On the other side of that fence is the remnants of an old building, which I think may actually be part of the old mill that used to be there. Keep in mind, I took over 60 pictures on my adventure and I’m only posting what I think are the best shots from the trip. There were historical plaques explaining the area that I took pictures of which I’ll link to at the end.

I love this picture. I’m not sure why.

I’m not really sure what’s going on in this picture. I saw something shiny on my way back and this is what I found…

Morning sky…

Getting closer to home…

This is the trail that the sign refers to. It’s at the end of my block on the opposite side of the road and really only snowmobiles use it.

And finally, home sweet home.

All in all the walk was a positive experience and obviously by doing this I’m way ahead of schedule as far as my immersion therapy. Now I have to keep doing it, ideally every day but I know that won’t happen, until it’s no big deal anymore. But at least now I know I’m capable of it and while I think I took pictures of everything there is to take pictures of back there, I know the landscape will change in a few weeks when these flowers I don’t know the name of will bloom and there will be leaves on the trees.

So I made it to Bishop Park. The next test of bravery is going to have to be the post office, but that’s a much bigger deal because it involves interacting with people, while going to the park was so early in the morning I only ran into one.

Anyway, as I said before, I took over 60 pictures while I was on my adventure, so if you’re interested in seeing the rest, feel free to peruse the gallery.(Just keep hitting “next” for a walking tour.)

And with that, I’m going to bed.

1. This morning I went on an adventure! I’m currently editing pics for the big post. :o)

2. Also this morning, I was profiled as a Hypercube contestant by theMediaman3. Check it out!

3. As of this post I’m ranked #3 in the Hypercube contest! Way to go voters!! This is all because of you and I cannot thank you enough!! Let’s keep this up!! <3 <3 <3

4. Poor Blake is 3 ranks behind me. Wanna help him out with that while you’re there? Thanks!!

I know, I know, I know. All I’ve been writing about lately is this contest and my foul moods and even I think it’s getting old, but that’s why I’ve been writing here on my site, rather than annoying the people of Live Journal.The truth of the matter is, I don’t have a whole lot going on in my life right now besides this contest and immersion therapy angst, so that’s what I have to write about. But have no fear! This weekend is Elmvale’s Maple Syrup Festival, which my mom is in, so there’s at least one forthcoming post that isn’t all “cube cube cube immersion therapy”.

Plus, pretty soon it’s going to be time to plant my garden, which I know a lot of you look forward to, so there’s that.

Anyway, during the first part of the contest, a small community formed on Twitter around @thehypercube and everyone in that community right now are all voting for each other. Just to keep things straight, a few people have been posting on their blogs and Live Journals who they’re voting for and I thought I’d do the same – with full disclosure that it’s almost 5am and I’m probably going to miss one or two people.

First up is Blake, obviously, otherwise known as @4bit4, whose category is “go-to” because he’s an IT geek.

Then comes @gunandagirl (creative license) and @heartsandclefs (sampler) who Blake & I met at the online tweetup shortly before the 500 finalists were chosen. They are both from Saskatoon, Saskatchewan and are lovely people so I vote for them

Up next is @thaPHLASH (creative license) from Montreal who’s probably one of my favourite people on the internet these days because he’s a great artist, a good person and I just dig the hell out of him. Plus his canvas rocks.

Then there’s @tswizz (side stepper) from Toronto who was the first person I “met” in the contest and whose website I posted about in the very beginning, called I Heart Cube.

Next is @JDollin (creative license), also from Toronto, who I don’t know very well, but he seems decent, I like his canvases (he changes them often) and he’s a friend of a friend I’ve known online for a long time so voting for him seemed like the right thing to do. Currently both of us (and Blake) are being pimped on one of the NSFW forums I go to so I figure we’re both in this together.

Then there’s @sandbarmark (go-to) from Prince Edward Island and @Tylersdaytoday (wordsmith) from Toronto who gets my vote just because of the picture of him and his stick.

Next comes @mariapetersen (creative license) from Surrey, BC who I have a voting pact with. She votes for me, I vote for her. So far the system’s working.

After Maria comes @qubicmx (sampler) from Calgary who’s just a nice guy and whose canvas I like.

Then comes @annakarenine (runway), from Gatineau which I’m pretty sure is in Quebec (I’m sorry, I suck at geography and don’t speak french…I’m a horrible Canadian :o/) and who I talk to a lot on Twitter. Plus, she makes really cute Cube-themed wallpapers, one of which I’m currently using. :o)

Next up is @willeagle (sampler) from Toronto because he’s just a cool guy and he’s polite, which is something I like to reward, especially when we’re all in competition with each other and certain folks HAVEN’T been polite during this contest.

Then we have @BeCircle, the King of Drupal from Toronto with his bouncing Cubes, who I so rudely forgot when I wrote this the first time even though I vote for him every single day. (Again, I’m sorry!) And new to the mix is my first and only “action jackson”, Michel Savoie, who promises to take a roadtrip to see all of Ontario’s tourist destinations should he win.

And last but not least…how can you not vote for Thornhill, Ontario’s Cube Man, @Seandubb?

And I think that’s it. Every other day or so I go through and look at each and every canvas and vote for the ones I like because as I said, the only really exciting thing I’ve got going on these days is this contest so I tend to spend a lot of time chatting with the other contestants on Twitter and looking at canvases.

Recently the little community that formed around @thehypercube has kind of strayed a bit as the contest progresses, so @gunandagirl has started planning an online tweetup for next Monday night which should bring us all back together. I hope so anyway.

Also recently, people from the contest have been contacting me, wanting me to plug them or do a vote exchange with them and I’ve mostly been ignoring them because…where were you during the last 4 weeks while we were all networking with each other, making friends and creating a community? I mean, if I happen to see your canvas while I’m flipping through and I like it, I’ll vote for it, but unless you were part of my posse from the beginning and actually interacted with me prior to the voting portion, I’m not about to make any deals.

Oh…and? If you’re this far in the contest and you still think you’re trying to win a “hypercube”…just…ugh.

I’m sorry of any of that sounded snotty, but it’s just the way it is.

Oh and one more thing? It finally happened. Some french dude got a Cube tattoo. I don’t speak french, so I don’t know what he’s saying and I’ll keep my thoughts on this to myself…

So that’s my contest update for today. Not all that exciting, I know, but this was more for my hypercube homies than anything else.

And now I’m going to go make myself crumpets and peanut butter and read some more of In the Night Garden, which, in case I haven’t mentioned it, I’m really enjoying. I would kill to have an imagination like that.

Instead of a fansign tonight, because I’m too tired to edit one, I’ll leave you with a little playlist. Enjoy!

LA LA LA LA LA! *twirls*

This week has been uncharacteristically busy and high stress for me with this Hypercube contest and as a result, I’ve suffered a bit of the writer’s block which is also uncharacteristic. I feel like a deer caught in the headlights, especially since the judges have been revealed and I don’t know if they’re watching or not. Normally I have zero problem with an audience, I write for one every day, but these guys can actually affect the course of my life and for that reason they make me very very nervous. o_O

I’m scared to change my Hypercube canvas because I don’t know if the judges have seen it in its current form and I really want them to. (Well, minus the two typos that I’m committed to fixing later on tonight.) I’m scared to make less than stellar blog/LJ posts because there are only 3 judges to 500 people, so who knows when they’re going to drop by my site and what they’re going to read when they get here. Grey Gardens posts aren’t exactly representative of the kind of writing I’m capable of.

I hate that I feel like there needs to be a strategy in the things I do. I hate that even though I said my strategy was just to be myself, that as I feared, it’s probably not enough to win. Have I ever mentioned that I loathe competition? I’m probably the least competitive person on the face of the Earth, it stresses me the fugg out. And I have to do a month of this? And then maybe even lose? Thinking about it makes me feel sick.

So I’m just gonna try to do my thang, okay? Okay.

This week I’ve been going out of the house a bit more with Blake because I’ve been trying to spot one or both of the two Hummers that are in this town. As I’ve mentioned about a million times, we live in a small town outside of Barrie, Ontario called Elmvale that only has a population of 1700. This town is very interesting to me in that it’s in this weird metamorphosis phase where people who work in Barrie are moving here, while senior residents die off, the Gen Y all flee and the farmers don’t seem to know what to make of things. The downtown is dying due to the economy and the giant Wal*Mart they built just 10 minutes away in Wasaga Beach, but at the same time, right across the road from my house, they’re building a subdivision of 300 brand new houses estimated to cost $300,000+ a piece. It’s very interesting for me to watch, having seen this happen before when I lived in Stouffville and Unionville was only a tiny town you visited on Sundays to have ice cream on their historic Main St. Unionville, with its proximity to Markham, exploded and became an upper middle class mini-city with like, CONDOS, while keeping its small town core and I think we’re going to see similar growth in Elmvale as more and more people flee Toronto and find jobs in Barrie.

I find it hilarious that our tiny town of 1700 has a thriving organic food shop in the center of a dying downtown core. Our dollar store went belly up a few months ago, but nope, the organic food store is doing just fine. It’s so strange.

Anyway, there is this couple in town who have his & hers identical Hummers and I see them around town all the time, often filling up at the gas station at the same time.

I’ve been trying to get a picture of them to post here to kind of explain why Blake and I are both vying for our own Cubes, which if you think about it, are kind of like mini Hummers and the juxtaposition of us filling up with gas at the same time as the Hummer people makes my brain laugh so hard I see stars.

But that’s not the only reason, obviously, the real reason is that our 2001 Cavalier is dying and we flat out cannot afford a replacement and I also think I deserve to have my own car and my own life.

The Cavalier is starting to rust quite a bit around the edges and while it’s never really given us any major trouble beyond basic maintenance, the odometer is creeping up towards 300,000 km and we know what’s ahead of us once it clicks over that magic number. Not to mention the fact that the poor Cavalier HAS THE FRIGGIN’ ALPHABET ETCHED ONTO THE SIDE COURTESY OF OUR SON WHEN HE WAS 3.

The fact of the matter is, Blake needs a new car and I really really want one because my life would greatly improve if I had one. Plus to me, it’s not just a car, it’s a Cube. The Cube could not only give me the life I so desperately deserve after being homebound for 7 years, but it’s a car I would be proud to be seen in. Like, I imagine parking it in the parking lot of Curry’s (art supply store) in Barrie and smiling to myself as people watch to see who gets out.

I dunno, maybe that’s stupid.

And it’s kind of funny reading that back to myself because as an agoraphobe attention is the last thing I want. People staring at me typically freaks me out. But at the same time, in the life I had before agoraphobia, before bipolar disorder, I could run around at Scratching Post shows in my underwear in front of hundreds of people and be totally fine. I could do a 30 minute presentation in college in front of 40 people and love every minute of it. I know there’s confidence inside me, I know there’s an attention whore lurking beneath the surface, and maybe the Cube will be the thing that brings her out.

Plus, winning this contest in general will mean I’m good enough, which is something I question every single day. And I don’t necessarily mean good enough as a person, but as a creative person, as a writer. If I win this contest it means Nissan (or I guess the judges) think I’m worthy of basically blogging for them. And that would feel really really good after blogging about my life for no reason and for no recognition or pay for the last 10 years.

I want to have adventures to write about and I want to write about adventures. The Cube is central to this becoming reality.

And that’s all I have to say about the Cube or the contest tonight. Except that…the votes reset at midnight and you can now vote for Blake & I again. If you would be so kind to do so, here’s my audition page link and here’s Blake’s. For other ways you can help us win, please see this post!

Also, here’s today’s fansign from Maggie & Seamus in the US!

In other news I’m way behind on seemingly everything. The canvases I was working on last week (or the week before?) are sitting unfinished in a cupboard in my laundry room and I don’t expect them to be finished any time soon as I feel extremely unmotivated in the ways of art. I’m just not feeling it these days. My most creative time, as far as painting, is in the winter and winter’s pretty much over.

Most years, during the spring and summer I typically take more photographs and write, which seems to hold true this year as well. The unfortunate thing is that writing and taking pictures doesn’t bring me any income and I feel like I have to force these paintings out of me if I want to continue having my own money. Except at the same time, I feel totally against doing that. I feel stuck.

Over the winter I came up with all kinds of grand plans for the life I want to live but as it warms up the less realistic those plans seem. In immersion therapy right now I’m supposed to be walking to the end of the block and back, but I haven’t done it yet. I don’t know why I haven;t done it yet, I just haven’t. It’s not that I’m particularly scared to do it, it’s just that I see no reason to walk to the end of the block, it seems like a pointless exercise. Walking to the end of the driveway seemed like a pointless exercise too, until we got a newspaper subscription because there was a newspaper to go pick up. At the end of the block there’s nothing, I just turn around and come home. Why? That’s so stupid! I’d much rather do big steps, like walk to the post office or the grocery store or wherever but I can’t do that with Lucky because of his separation anxiety and I don’t want to leave him at home. We got him a harness so I could leave him tied up outside of places without him slipping his collar and running back home, but with his incisions from the lumpectomy I can’t use it.

Annnnnnnnnnd I’ve written about this all before.

I just feel off track and I don’t like it but at the same time, I don’t seem to be willing to do anything about it, which I fully acknowledge. It’s me doing this and only I can be the one to change it. And that’s what’s so frustrating. I don’t know why I’m so unmotivated. It’s not that I’m particularly scared, just apathetic. These little baby steps seem so pointless to me I don’t even want to deal with them, but the big steps are out of my reach, so I’m screwed either way.

Another thing that’s pissing me off about all of this is that a MONTH AGO my shrink said she was going to put in a request for me to have a caseworker to help me with all of this but she didn’t do it and instead, she went on vacation until next month. Nice.

Watching Grey Gardens last night really made me think about my life and how dangerously close I am to a lifetime of agoraphobia and seclusion like the Edies. In the documentary, Little Edie talks a lot about all of the things she missed out on doing because she was stuck in Grey Gardens with her mother and I just thought, “man, I don’t want that to be me”. I don’t want to be in my 50′s and lamenting on all of the stuff I didn’t do, I want to think about the things I did do. And unless I get up off my ass and out of this house, that’s exactly what’s going to happen. I already lost most of my 20′s to this thing, I don’t want to miss my 30′s too.

And with that, I’m off to read The Orphan’s Tales: In the Night Garden, which my friend Poe recommended to me, and eat a nice salad, the ingredients of which were purchased this afternoon during an adventure to the grocery store on the off-chance I’d see the Hummer people at the gas station.

RAWR!!! *flex*

I am so fricken tired yet so excited for tomorrow/today because at 8pm the HBO movie Grey Gardens is going to be on and following it will be the documentary, which I actually own and watch often but we’ll be watching it with Steve, a Grey Gardens virgin and (former?) film student, making it that much more exciting.

I’ve watched the trailer for the HBO movie about a hundred million times since it came out because while I love Drew Barrymore to death, I never really thought she was a very good actress or picked very good parts, but holy crap does she ever nail Little Edie. The first time I saw it my jaw hit the floor, I was SHOCKED. I expected to hate the hell out of this movie because I love the documentary and the Edies so much but the trailer looks amazing and I’m so excited I’m probably going to cry during the opening credits.

Here’s the trailer:

If you have HBO, seriously consider watching this. It’s at 8pm EST and again, following the movie is the documentary which, if you haven’t seen it, you have to see it and if you have no idea who Big & Little Edie Bouvier are then I suggest you get a’Googlin’. SUNNY SAYS SO.

Also? Little fun fact for ya: A lot of the movie was shot down the 9th Line in Stouffville where I used to live, which is sorta cool. They used an old house there for the interior of Grey Gardens and put a fake facade on it. If I’d have known about that as it was happening, you couldn’t keep me away. I was actually really disappointed when I read about it after the fact because I would have killed to have my picture taken in front of the facade.

A few of my favourite Grey Gardens quotes:

“I think I’ll be an old maid until I die. I’ll probably sit around with cats for the rest of my life. Whatever happens, I certainly won’t start to drink. But I do have what you call entrenched habits, and I’m not going to change them.”
- Little Edie

“But you see in dealing with me, the relatives didn’t know that they were dealing with a staunch character and I tell you if there’s anything worse than dealing with a staunch woman… S-T-A-U-N-C-H. There’s nothing worse, I’m telling you. They don’t weaken, no matter what.”
- Little Edie

“This is the best thing to wear for today, you understand. Because I don’t like women in skirts and the best thing is to wear pantyhose or some pants under a short skirt, I think. Then you have the pants under the skirt and then you can pull the stockings up over the pants underneath the skirt. And you can always take off the skirt and use it as a cape. So I think this is the best costume for today.”
- Little Edie

“Will you shut up? It’s a goddamn beautiful day, shut up!”
- Big Edie

AHHHHH I love them. Someone in a Live Journal community (I forget which one now, I’m sorry!) made these a while back and I snagged them, so if they’re yours, lemme know so I can give credit:

So yep, it’s Grey Gardens Day and I couldn’t be more excited. We’re serving hamburgers and hot dogs, with pasta with pesto and baby vegetables on the side. Really we should have served liver pate and corn, in honour of the movie, but I don’t think any of us would eat liver pate (ew) and my pesto pasta  concoction is much better than corn.

Well, I was going to write more, I feel like I’m totally neglecting my blogging duties, but it’s after 5am and I’m beat. To be perfectly honest I’m feeling pretty beaten down these days between trying to get these paintings done, writing/blogging, Twittering, maintaining things for the Hypercube contest, IRC, trying to finish the books I’m reading and immersion therapy (which I don’t even want to talk about right now). I feel like all I’ve done this week is promote the Hypercube contest and that if all I do is promote the Hypercube contest, eventually people are going to stop reading anything I have to say.

With that said, I’m going to write about the Hypercube contest quickly and go to bed…

Right now I’m ranked #6 and Blake’s ranked #8, which is fine by us, we’re happy to be where we are, but in order to maintain our positions, we need you guys to vote EVERY SINGLE DAY. So, once again, here’s the info:

Register at www.hypercube.ca to vote and once you’ve done that, you need to find Blake & I. You *could* just search by location “elmvale” under the Hypercube tab or you could just click these nifty links for our audition canvases:

Sunny’s Audition Canvas | Blake’s Audition Canvas

Voting is DAILY so what we’re suggesting is to add those two links to your browser’s bookmark toolbar for easy access and so you see it every day. Another thing you can do to remind yourself to vote every day is to “attend” our Facebook event and if you were feeling extra giddy about the prospect of me getting a life, you could even invite friends to the event and get them to vote too! Blake & I would really really appreciate that!

We would also really really appreciate you spreading the word any way you can! If you have a website, please pimp us! If you have a Live Journal or a blog or even on Twitter, spread those links far & wide so we can stay on top! And don’t forget to tell people that voting is daily please!

My friend Alex also “dugg” our audition pages, so if you’re a Digg user, feel free to digg our pages here:

Sunny’s Digg | Blake’s Digg

Okay, almost done! The last thing I’m asking for, as I’ve been asking for this whole time, is Cube themed fansigns. Again, if you need inspiration, feel free to browse the fansign gallery and send your creations to Sunny@SunnyCrittenden.com!

*whew* Okay I think that’s it. Got all that? The main thing though is voting. Every day. And we thank you in advance for coming together and helping us in this endeavor!

Onto today’s fansign and then I’m going to bed! In honour of Grey Gardens, may I present to you Little Edie of Barrie, Ontario who wants to see me in a Nissan Cube!

Oh man today was tense trying to execute various methods of getting votes for Blake and I in the Hypercube contest. As of this writing I think I’m ranked #8 and he’s #11, which isn’t bad. The hard part is maintaining this momentum for an entire month and getting you all to vote every single day. _Plus, I think only 200 of the 500 finalists put up their canvases today, so who knows what tomorrow will bring.

So, to reiterate what you’ve probably seen me say a billion times today….

Register at www.hypercube.ca to vote and once you’ve done that, you need to find Blake & I. You *could* just search by location “elmvale” under the Hypercube tab or you could just click these nifty links for our audition canvases:

Sunny’s Audition Canvas | Blake’s Audition Canvas

Voting is DAILY so what we’re suggesting is to add those two links to your browser’s bookmark toolbar for easy access and so you see it every day. Another thing you can do to remind yourself to vote every day is to “attend” our Facebook event and if you were feeling extra giddy about the prospect of me getting a life, you could even invite friends to the event and get them to vote too! Blake & I would really really appreciate that!

We would also really really appreciate you spreading the word any way you can! If you have a website, please pimp us! If you have a Live Journal or a blog or even on Twitter, spread those links far & wide so we can stay on top! And don’t forget to tell people that voting is daily please!

My friend Alex also “dugg” our audition pages, so if you’re a Digg user, feel free to digg our pages here:

Sunny’s Digg | Blake’s Digg

Okay, almost done! The last thing I’m asking for, as I’ve been asking for this whole time, is Cube themed fansigns. Again, if you need inspiration, feel free to browse the fansign gallery and send your creations to Sunny@SunnyCrittenden.com!

*whew* Okay I think that’s it. Got all that? The main thing though is voting. Every day. And we thank you in advance for coming together and helping us in this endeavor!

Anyway, like I said, today was a pretty tense day watching new canvases go up on the Hypercube site and watching Blake & I’s stats go up and down all day. Plus trying to co-ordinate people voting and posting all over the internet about it, I’m wiped the eff out. BUT! It was still a good day and it was fun seeing what everyone else had created.

I was going to make this a real post with actual writing and less pimping, but it’s almost 4am and as I said, I’m pretty wiped out. BUT I will leave you with this amazing fansign Fenton from Nova Scotia sent me:

Mandragoria of Azeroth thinks I need a Cube!
(Druid love!!! <3 <3 <3)

And with that, I’m going to bed. Goodnight! <3

It took me 2 grueling days fighting with the buggiest application I have ever seen in my entire life, but my “blank canvas” for the hypercube contest is no longer blank and should go live sometime tomorrow.

Now here’s the thing, as I said, the blank canvas was super buggy and I basically had to retype my text 8 times and start over completely 9 times because every time I saved, logged out and came back, nothing was where it was supposed to be, so when I say I fought with it, I seriously fought with it. And that’s not even mentioning the billion times the app just randomly logged me out before I could save, losing stuff I’d done each time.

So finally, I got it looking more or less exactly how I wanted it to look, saved, then hit the publish button and I’m now praying for the best. Here’s what it looked like when I submitted it for moderation, God only knows what it’ll look like when it goes live on hypercube.ca tomorrow (as always, click to enlarge):

If it doesn’t look like that when it goes live tomorrow and you’re all voting for me, it’s not my fault. It’s that fracking application’s and all I can do is e-mail the powers that be that screenshot so they can fix whatever bug is causing me all this pain.

Because all canvases are moderated before they go live, I have no idea when mine will show up tomorrow but I’ll certainly let everyone know that the voting has begun!

And with that, my brain is fried. Tomorrow’s going to be a big day, so I’m going to get some sleep so I’ll be fresh as a daisy and ready to execute various plans. Goodnight!

Right now I’m supposed to be working on my hypercube.ca “blank canvas” but I’m not because it’s frustrating me, I’m overwhelmed, feeling inferior and just plain not good enough.

People are going to be doing all of this crazy stuff to try and win themselves a Cube, stuff that I just can’t do, being currently unable to leave my house and living in a super tiny town even if I could. Everything I do is going to have to be online, revolving around other people’s sites and social networking, in order to get myself votes.

And I just had the BEST idea ever and it’s wholly unfortunate that I don’t have the skillset to make it happen. Are you ready?

A Facebook application. Once you register on hypercube.ca to vote, you use the application on Facebook to vote every day and for every say, 10 votes you give me, you get points or a virtual gift or something. And you get other people to vote and use the application by sending these virtual gifts to other people. These virtual gifts would of course, be Cube related.

Am I a genius or what? It’s just too bad I don’t have the nerdskills to execute.

So, since I have to do it all the old fashioned way….here’s ways you can help me win my Cube:

1. Register at hypercube.ca to vote for me because voting starts tomorrow.
2. Add the link to my page (once I post it, should be tomorrow) and vote for me EVERY DAY.
3. Send me a Cube-themed fansign to: Sunny@SunnyCrittenden.com Need inspiration? Here’s the gallery of fansigns I already have. Remember, a fansign has to be a hand-drawn sign, using Photoshop or other photo editing software to add text doesn’t count.
4. Join my Facebook fan page to keep updated on new posts on this site and for daily reminders to vote.
5. More top secret stuff that will be revealed to the people who are friends on my Facebook fan page.
6. Comment on the posts on THIS site so the hypercube people know it’s being read!
7. Beg and/or bribe your friends and family to do all of the above as well!

And if anyone else has any genius ideas to help me get ahead and get votes, definitely let me know! Let the games begin!

So with this contest thing, I’m afraid of being disqualified for having a potty mouth and since I plan on linking from my hypercube blank canvas PAGE (where you vote) to this site (because there’s not enough room for long copy on the bank canvas and I need that), please allow me to get this out of my system:

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK EXCLAMATION POINT

K, I should be good now. I realize it’s not exactly being true to myself to curb this one aspect of who I am for “the man” – let’s face it, I say fuck a lot – but I really want to dig into that 1 in 10 chance with  all 10 of my nails and it would kill me to go through this whole thing and be disqualified because I said “fuck” a few times.

So, from here until I no longer have to have my site as a component of the contest, there will be creative euphemisms where you’d normally see my most colourful language. I hope you all understand my reasons for selling out.

Thanks, douchenozzles. :oP <3